I need to grow up and not depend on others to constantly guide me; I need to take initiative! I should be able to resist the temptations of wanting material things when there’s important things to spend on. I guess it’s the cause of feeling like a lot of people around me can ask for something and get it even with the financial burdens they say they have. I hate being treated like I’m naive but also hate that I haven’t done much to prove myself as responsible. 

I don’t owe it to you guys to explain myself and how I’ve been. I’ve allowed this to haunt me for months and tried to understand. Although I’m at fault to some degree, I can’t accept all the blame because your narrow minded thoughts led you to believe that I have cruel intentions. Sorry for your misconceptions of how I come off, but look at where that got you.